#9

Ya know.. sometimes I can't explain why things happen, or what is happening and I get all worried and try to make things happen on my own, or I try to take control of a situation that appears out of my control... But then.... BAM!!! it all makes sense! I don't consider myself a doubtful person, i'm pretty optimistic, and would consider myself dependant on God's grace to take me through this journey of life, but somethings are happening in mylife that are making sense now.... I never thought God would be doing this in my life.

I hate to sound trite or cliche but... God is in control!

Nick

#8

Wow... it seems my blogs are getting further and further apart. I think its wierd that I read blogs all day, or maybe not all day but every day I read someone's blog... anyways, I need to get a few things off my mind.
1. So the other day I received a myspace message from a good friend of mine that i'll admit i have a high school crush on. The message basically said this... "i hate that i have to do this, but I fear that mine and yours relationship is hindering me and david ever getting back together, so we will no longer talk or hang out. Sorry... I hope you understand" Let me tell you this totally surprised me because, even though i really like her, I've never made a move on her. i always treated her with the utmost respect, and I even respected her ex-bf that I don't really care for... infact, me and my roommates have been writing a song about her for me... Its called "left unsaid", here's the idea behind the song... There's a girl you like and are good friends with, but you can't tell her something like... I like you, or can we take our relationship to the next level, because she is dating someone or another guy is already tell her what you want to tell her. so, you have to just leave it... left unsaid. does that make sense? anyways, the other night she sent me a text message saying i'm sorry, her ex-bf didn't trust her with any other guy and that he made her write that... What should I think what should I do... So... basically I left her message unreplied.. haha... left unreplied... haha...

well i'll blog some more tonight at work.

nj

#7

So as of late i've officially been missing ministry very very much. I've been leading worship for a friends youth ministry on wednesday nights and have really been enjoying my time with those students and putting a song of praise on their lips for them to glorify our King. The other night I was looking through the Itunes store, specifically the podcasts and i've stumbled upon some podcasts that i've never heard before. I fell upon Mark Driscolls Video Podcasts. I've been able to download 6 podcasts and have begun his series in Ruth. I've always found beauty in Ruth and poetic pictures of Christ in that book. Mark has a gift of bringing something obvious to light in a different/ creative way. I could ramble on and on about how much I like Mark's teachings or how I really admire what he's trying and doing in my home state, but I won't bore you there. I'll just say... I like Mark Driscoll and all he's doing for the King.

#6

Well... I was driving to the gym this morning, and I hydroplaned and hit the railing. It only damaged my hood and front bumper, so i'm not to tore up about it... but never the less... its still a hastle!!!

On the good side of the mishap this morning, it caused me to have a great work out... haha...

In a couple weeks i'll be traveling to Oklahoma city to visit a friend and watch a john mayer concert with her... i'm totally pumped.

But just as I say that, I had the distinct privilege I was able to see a friend I haven't seen in a long long time the other night and I was very excited about other potential evenings together.. who knows what might come of it...

#5

has it really been a month since i blogged? Man o Man... i've been kindof busy but honestly i've thought about blogging but I just didn't have the eneregy needed to compose my thoughts... Well todays here and BAM! I'm ready. Actually I don't know about ready but I do have several things on my mind.

a. Relationships? Why do we long to have a significant meaningful relationship, yet are scared to death in pursueing one... Since redefining my life in August and becoming single again, i've often thought about past relationships and what went wrong? what went right? ya know... I often wonder if Stacy and I would be as miserable together as I think we would be? or would things work out for better? I have several friends who have married in the past 3 yrs and it blows me away, most of which are younger than me, and things are fine... Marriage honestly does scare me. I talked with a friend this weekend at encounter about marriage, he's been married less than a year and he said this... "if I didn't pray for this relationship DAILY it wouldn't work" "this relationship is very much dependant on God"... that really struck a chord with me... I wonder if I could do a long distance relationship again? Maybe I can, maybe I should? I don't know... the only thing I know about relationships at this very moment is, I want one but in that very same breathe, I don't.

b. why do I get so annoyed with people who think they are bad ass? is it really because I think i'm bad ass? and don't want anyone to "out-do" me? I don't know, but i've learned that I can only be around J.C. for a total of 2 days before I want to kick his face in... His sheer arogance annoys the crap out of me, to the point I ball my fist up... seriously! its bad! I know for a fact things he has said are lies and only said to build himself up, or make himself seem "bad ass". I don't know... Guys like that I can only handle in parts.. other parts my blood boils...

c. I have officially begun missing ministry! I don't care to ellaborate right now, but I do.


i'm out